Not much of a revelation.

I know why relationship stability eludes me.

Because it's simply not consistent with the restless, the sleepless, the fickle, the overcontemplative, the searching, the wandering, the scared, the adventurous, the bored, the mad, the desirous,

which are the only characteristics in others that can hold my attention for long enough.

.......Or perhaps it's just because those are all characteristics of myself.