Friday, April 29, 2011

not a night for apathy

The ticking is overwhelming.
His picture perfect broken family is overwhelming.
The mess in this room is overwhelming.
The night outside the window is overwhelming.
Their sickening values are overwhelming.
This movie is overwhelming.
This memory is overwhelming.
These people around me are overwhelming.
Your last-minute desperation is overwhelming.
This inbox is overwhelming.

I can't go.
Not yet.

1 comment:

  1. Don't leave then, definitely. Or at least take your time and enjoy all the time left where you currently are.


    “If you’re going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don’t even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery—isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you’ll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you’re going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It’s the only good fight there is.”
    — Charles Bukowski, Factotum


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